I don't know about you, but I tend to just start yelling my butt off at the people I care about most simply because I get frustrated. They never see that though, they just suspect I am just a crazy unhappy person that feels like making others feel bad. That is not it at all, I just get frustrated and the way my brain is wired, I just start yelling at them because i'm so irritated and frustrated, that is the only behavior that will get my point across. I am a mature adult, when your body matures your brain goes along with it, or it should any way. My mind sometimes performs just like a small child, I throw tantrums and try to get attention, and sometimes I interrupt conversations because at that particular moment I think it should be about me. Just like a small child, I get attention the same way they do, through non verbal communication and throwing something. It is not something I'm proud of, but it is the truth. It is probably like that for all "Aspies". Something triggers in your mind that you need to get your point across and thus you only know one way to do it and thats the same way you've been doing it all along.
We do not like change, and whenever something is about to change or someone puts pressure on us to change, it cannot be done and we scatter. We like things the way they are and we want to keep them that way, and when we feel threatened and think our personal world is going to be destroyed, we protect it at all costs. It is just a defense mechanism we have built for ourselves and because of it, we do not get hurt that way, but because we do not seem to feel empathy, we do not worry about getting hurt any way. We just lash out because we care and we want to do better and we are not fans of failure. When we feel as though we are going to fail, the frustration kicks in and we combat it the only way we know how. So apologies to all those friends and family that cared, from all of us in the "Aspie" community, we're sorry, just bare with us. We mean well!
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